This is my story...

Saturday, November 18, 2006

So here comes my ear infection again despite the earlier operation I had, and yes, the blocked ear, the extensive flow of fluid out from it, the constant itch in my throat... how irritating could those be? Of course I pray hard to get well again, not to mention another of my back problem comes by, whereby straining it alone isn't enough but indeed some nerve went to place itself the wrong way. Just mere 5 minutes of keep still standing is a pain in the ass for me, not to mention sitting down without a back support. And forgo those gym sessions, especially with my left hand, because he advised me not to carry weights, for a long period of time.

So I suppose when I was just about to get back my regime, some crap happened to myself and prevented me from doing all these things, which of course will prolong my lifespan. Then of course, my motivation is back, nonetheless the urge to lazy around still dwells upon me.

Am I too engrossed to things to such a certain extent that I do not realise that I am at all? Some times it is, because things will eventually be normal to you when you do abnormal things frequently, or rather, repetitive unusual, boring stuff which you repeat all night long.

Oh, I realise I do not have much fun this few months, due to the busy schedule in camp (as usual, or is it a delusion?) though I have been lazing around defying every single thing that is placed upon me. Studying still rocks more than anything else; no worries, no responsibilities, no qualms, oh stress, the temporal stress beats the eternal ones your boss give you every other day for the next 20 years of your life. Quite screwed up eh?

And they say I blog sad things here. Indeed. Too much until I do not know when to start already. So sad. Perhaps someone can save me out from the eternal darkness, again? Please?

No use begging already.

Rambled by kaSh at 12:21 am