This is my story...

Sunday, February 19, 2006

I have a resolution every weekend. And it seems to drag through the next, and the one after, and then it goes on forever. When will I, for fuck's sake, grow up and start to do everything seriously? I seem to be so lazy and incapable to everyone... oh well whatever.

It all boils down to discipline. Perhaps I don't have any of it at all. It greatly reflects on the things I have done, shows that I lack of discipline. Maybe I should "buy" it or "steal" it from someone, or perhaps, "generate" on myself? Maybe that will be a better idea. I do not even have the discipline to update my blog frequently.

Some people say it is all due to work and all that are affecting them. I think it is just bull crap. 24 hours a day is more than enough to do the things you are required to do, and if it isn't enough, 7 days a week is more than sufficient. Now I understand what "every man dies, but not every man lives" kinda thing.

How many times have we regretted into doin something we wished we have not done? Oh my frigging god, too many frigging times. Too bad. I know that things just flew away sometimes and are never to be able to be retrieve or substituted back, the only way to relieve it is to move on. Goddamn the truth, hurts.

And after so much crap I have posted surprisingly I am the one who is contradicting to it. Maybe some of the people who read it will have the initiative to think twice on how screw up their lives are and decide to change it for the better, be more discipline, etc but for me, after 10 years, I will still be like this.

Perhaps I will not be like this in 10 hours time, because I am beginning to listen to my own crap now.

Rambled by kaSh at 12:37 am