This is my story...

Thursday, January 19, 2006

Sometimes I wonder if it is a cause triggers a series of events to happen, things which are bad (or good) happened or felt after a general negative (or positive) emotions sets in. Oh well. It seems like I don't really have any good days to hope for this month. Then again Janaury should be one of the joyest month of the year, due to CNY and my birthday, but oh well things do really change with time...

And all I could think of is just to get things done quickly, although I am REALLY lazy to do it, it is my job ultimately and I am tasked to complete it, at least I did my work before going out to "play", and I hate people giving me that pathetic look, thinking that I am slacking my life away. At least I was some help in one or another way, at least I made someone's life alot easier...

The thing is I do not have the time and laziness dominate me time and again, ceasing me from updating my blog. Anyways I do not have much things to do talk about, typical army life and all, and some general comments on people who I met in and out of camp, in and out of game and around me. There is always a general trend among Singaporeans if I must say, is that we never want to admit our lost. We want to be superior, in an extreme competitive manner, ie snatching things which we want unwanting to give a gimpse on others, and of course, the haughtiness tone of us does not seem to fade away anytime sooner, and we pretend to be a know-all.

All the time I think of what am I suppose to do in the future, the endless struggle with my personality now, ultimately leads to the reason of "why".

I guess it's because of her, again. Someone who I'll never be able to hold onto again. But why her?

Some questions are often left unanswered, never to be touched and even if it does, the answer seems to come directly from the heart, which then again will chain back to the beginning of all questions.

I don't know, it must be the alcohol...

Rambled by kaSh at 11:29 pm