This is my story...

Saturday, July 30, 2005

I feel so lonely, someone please kill me.

Perhaps this world is not enough for me, perhaps this world is too wide for me.

Perhaps the things around me do not satisfy my desires.

Or perhaps I am never happy with the things I have, and eternally hoping for the impossible to come true.

Or perhaps things may come true one day, for as long as I am willing to work hard for it.

The only slight defect is, where to start?

Ever since I told myself to get my feet up since the start of the year, I have been thinking of ways and means to achieve something which satisfies my inner desires and my strange and unfathomed thoughts.

Until now I don't find the utmost solution to it. Could it be the high demands I want? Or could it be I never really thought about it at all?

The world has too many redundant factors to be considered and put to use.

And I brooding over such useless matters which only cause more white estringing hair to pop out my my scalp.

Sometimes I wonder how will it feel to have someone to be by your side again, sharing your woes, your cryings, your happiness, your everything with you all the time. Time and again when you feel delighted, you have the desire to share it with your companion.

Be it nothing or everything, she will always be there for you. Be it the rants or the sweet talks, she will always be the one compromising.

Be it the times spent are longer or shorter than usual, she appreciates every single tick of the clock with you.

Be it the pains she goes through for you, and in times it is even left unknown to you and until you only find out, the love deepens further down.

I need someone to stand by my side again.

Rambled by kaSh at 8:24 pm