This is my story...

Monday, May 02, 2005

I only know how to talk rubbish. Nothing else is good comes out from my mouth. I am bad at words. Sometimes I even say the wrong things, that's why I prefer not to say. I tend to be a little straightforward at times, but my words just jumble me up. I just don't know how to speak well and express well my thoughts are feelings. That's just me.

I may only be something which is so worthless and insignificant, achieving nothing great but just wasting my time for the past 5 months at home sleeping and playing the computer all the way. Yes I do think I am like that.

But the one thing which makes me go on with life is because I don't really care what others say. Who cares. It's my life and I wanna live it. So what if you reprimand me for being so slack at home, instead of looking for a job, working from 9 to 5 everyday, complaining every single night on your blog about the job you are in, saying that the pay sucks, the people around you are just two-faced, the boss is just an asshole and all that?

And I believe that previously I've let off most of the opportunities slipped passed me, not cherishing and realising that they have come. Something which I've regretted most of the time. If you know me you will know some of my stories.

Maybe I've mistaken, or whatever you wanna say, whatever you wanna spout me at, whatever you wanna think. Maybe it's just me, as I've said, someone who is worthless and useless. Maybe those are the reasons which disallowed me to be the key to your heart. Maybe those are the reasons which unabled me to be the one who will be there whenever you need me.

But I wanna tell you. If I made a mistake for falling for you simply because there is something wrong with my eyes, then I'd rather go blind.

The theory always goes right. If you don't take the risk and instead play safe, you won't get what you always wanted.

Time isn't a major factor. Yeah. I've said already. Whatever he cannot give you, I can.

You just have to give me that one chance to prove it.

And by giving me that chance it means we can choose not to care about what others think, and to continue our lives as per normal.

If you choose to seclude yourself there for now, you are missing out an opportunity. It goes both ways. I hope you understand my words.

I just don't wanna let such an opportunity like you to slip pass me, again.

"Open up the part of you that wants to hide away, and tell me it will be alright for me to stay."

Rambled by kaSh at 5:40 pm