This is my story...

Saturday, April 09, 2005

I don't wanna be someone who is so goddamn chauvinistic anymore.

Everyone makes mistakes. I am sure that the one you had made isn't intentional in any other way. It wasn't bad enough compared to the past. In fact it was just a minute problem which everyone can just forgive and forget easily, and get on with life.

Sorry if I took it that seriously, maybe that's just me. Something which I really value alot, and somehow or rather I thought I will not allow any spaces and loopholes, it was really a tight value.

For the past four months you have been really cheerful, the one who portrays the joyful and peppy look, someone who was there for me, despite only knowing you for no longer than 2 weeks at that time, scolded me and woke me up to life.

That was the reason why I bought chocolates to cheer you up; I thought you were disappointed for me not turning up for your drama performance, so I tried to make amends to it. I knew you were really down when you received your results, so I tried to put back that smile on your face.

I didn't mean to make you cry.

And I don't hate you. And I don't see you as some bitch who cannot keep secrets or whatsoever. Nothing of that sort, ever. And I won't want you to say that you are someone like this, because you simply aren't. It was just because I was furious at that time, but I never never ever thought of you as someone like this.

I didn't mean to upset you like this.

You know I am sensitive towards such things, and you know I can't do anything well when I feel really down, not because I had something wrong in me, but because of otherwise.

I promise I won't wanna make you cry anymore, nor I will do anything just to hurt you, and I won't wanna remove that smile of yours hanging and dangling on your face.

All I want is just someone who doesn't hurt me. Someone who won't do such things to me again.

I am really sorry to have hurt and upset you, but please, don't do that again, ok?

Rambled by kaSh at 8:05 pm