This is my story...

Tuesday, March 08, 2005

You know what, when I have that thought of my friends getting A and B for their Further Mathematics, I always wondered: Why the FUCK did I drop that subject at the beginning of the year? Why was it me? WHY CAN'T SOMEONE JUST TALK TO ME ON NOT DROPPING THAT SUBJECT? Why am I so mesmerized into you, sacrificing even this stupid thing which was so important to me and my future, in the fucking end you left without saying a shiet, letting the WHOLE DAMN WORLD to laugh at me, telling me that Alvin YOU REALLY SUCK AT EVERYTHING EVEN AT MAKING CRUCIAL DECISIONS YOU CAN'T EVEN DECIDE WHAT'S GOOD AND WHAT'S NOT IN THE LONG RUN.

One of the few things which I've regretted the most. I thought you were my life, but in the end, it wasn't meant to be. In the end, you won, anyways and anytime... in the end, the fucked up and the loser was me, no one else but me. Ask me if the sacrifices I made were worth it, yes it was. It was really worth sacrificing every single thing for you.

Can someone just slap me, wake me up into not brooding over this matter of regretting the withdrawal of my subject and all the shiet which you all know which is happening inside me? Please? Someone? Isabelle, HuiQi, girl, Fel, whoever reads my blog? Someone?

Ask me if they are worth it now, no, not anymore.

Rambled by kaSh at 2:57 am