This is my story...

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

I went to town for a walk, lunch and a drink just now. It was crowded; full of teenagers, youngsters or whatever you wanna call them. I just feel so old now. I am already 19 years of age and have never done anything great for myself or the people around me. Sometimes I just feel a little insignificant...

Yeah and I am really determined to get into FOM in NUS. I ain't sure what are the chances of entering FOM but I am giving it a try. Suddenly there's is burning enthusiasm inside me, wanting to get into FOM...

Being a doctor was my childhood ambition.. "I wanna be a doctor when I grow up!" That was what I always told my mother. As a result she bought books such as How my Body Works for me to read when I was young... like primary 3... By the time I was in Primary 6 I was more or less familiarized with the human anatomy.

I changed my "ambition" when I entered JC. Engineering was floating in my mind since the subjects I took only applied mostly to the FOE. When I was browsing through the NUS webby after I got back my results, I saw the prerequisite for FOM and I thought I was able to enter FOM... why not give it a try..

Lunch: $8
Ice Cream: $3
Coffeebean: $6

Suddenly everything comes back to haunt me. What if I cannot get into the course I want? What if my interview isn't successful? What if I screw the whole damn thing up? What if I don't even get shortlisted in the first place? All the what ifs...

Yeah, nevertheless, I still wanna try... Sometimes it's better to give it a try for you will never know what the outcome is. Although sometimes it will turn out what you may not expect, but you can always tell yourself that, yeah at least you tried, unlike most of the people out there, without any confidence and such, and do not even give the thought of trying..

Chemical Engineering isn't a bad 2nd choice afterall.

Rambled by kaSh at 11:35 pm