This is my story...

Monday, February 07, 2005

I feel really moody for these past few days. I have been thinking too much again. Things in the past are coming back to haunt me. Please go away....

But I know, avoiding is not the solution. Somehow or rather I'll have to do something, if not I will either regret not doing it or make a fuss outta it for the rest of my life.

I just wanna risk it another time again. It doesn't matter if I fail again, because I know that the more I fail, the stronger I will become, the more I want to continue on, the better the taste of success will be.

I don't wanna regret again. Goddamnit. Which is really the best solution of all? I am really cracking up my head to find a solution, some perfect remedy which everyone can be happy.

I will pick up my courage again to do something which I have been wanting to do so, something which is hidden inside of me for a long time.....

It doesn't mean I don't show, means I don't feel. I feel for you more than I show for the past years. Yeah maybe I was an asshole, sometimes having the thoughts of going other girls, but eventually you are still back in my mind. Why? Not because I am sick and tired of others and just want you back for fun, but because you are still there, never before you have left me, never before the thought of you slips through my mind for a single night...

It's all from the bottom of my heart.

Rambled by kaSh at 2:00 am