This is my story...

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

Maple maple maple maple maple maple maple maple like nobody's business. With warmest gratitudes to Hui Ling again, thanks. Play play play play play till like the world's coming to an end, and thought the A levels was over.

Physics. Screwed up. Need to pia for paper 3. Goddamnit. I alway say but never do. Ended up playing maple, killing stumps and snails, purchasing neverending powers of weapons and armours, Picking up ores from the floor after you've killed an enemy or so, jumping onto joy and hoping for another ore dropped, and it continues and until you realised it, 5 hours have passed, then you regretted, "OMFG I should be studying!"

From the start I thought you were meant for me, now I've realised it wasn't meant to be. Somehow or rather we have reached an irrevisible stage of torment, something big and destructive in between us which can never be found and cured. All I really wish was what we had in the past, I am trying, but obviously you aren't, something's just there. I know it's me, as the saying goes, to err is human, to forgive, divine... read this book about God and so, somehow or rather I feel that whatever hatred we had given to at that very moment, was really foolish if you think about it sometime later. God forgives us for our sins, why not you?

I ain't a Christian, but I believe in forgiveness. Not matter what wrong someone had done to me, despite of saying "I will not talk to you ever again." at that moment of anguish, eventually, forgiveness comes to heart, forgive and forget is the key, that's what makes us human beings, apart from other beasts which hunt and prey like no one's business.

Really tired of all the shiet. Wanted to rest and just be like normal, somehow or rather, can't. There's just something there. I do not know what is it, and only you can tell me the answer and do something about it.... telling me but doing nothing isn't the complete answer...

Eventually, you don't care.... and I can choose not to care too.

A levels is coming to an end.

Rambled by kaSh at 3:49 pm