This is my story...

Thursday, October 07, 2004

I can't say this will be the last time we are going to touch this subject, but oh well... time an again I just feel that I should explain things to her, to clear some misunderstandings. Well that's how I feel; I feel that she is misunderstanding me.. oh well.. I still do not know how she feels... but I guess I just have to keep on guessing.

Yeah, can't really study because of that... well tried to study in school this afternoon but well went around to disturb people. Sometimes this kind of things really do affect your mood to study. Sometimes you tell yourself to let go but you just can't.

However after that conversation I think I need to make a choice. Oh well... I just wanna say, at the beginning I've regretted telling you everything. I've regretted calling you out to meet me on that day.

There were things which hurt us alot. There were countless of times which I have made you cry. I've felt the deep cut in my heart. Some things really do hurt alot. Some things which aren't worth to ponder just can't seem to get off your mind.

But there are a couple of lessons I have learnt through this experience. A vast load of them. Sometimes you will have to 'sacrifice' some things to gain others. Through this process I've learnt what is the major difference between a friend and a girlfriend, I've learnt who is the most trustworthy among all, I've learnt not to jump into conclusions, I've learnt to control myself. I've learnt alot of things in the expense of my emotions.

Come to think of it, I do not regret telling you afterall. Because I'd rather let you know how I feel, than to regret by not telling you that at the end of the day.

"Do something you may regret, rather than regretting something which you have not done."

Rambled by kaSh at 9:14 pm