This is my story...

Sunday, September 26, 2004

As mentioned earlier on by my friend, my blog isn't interesting at all because it doesn't contain my love life. Hmm... why must I write my love life when I don't have one?? Quite unrealistic right? So I wrote crap like how the microwave oven works and my fucked up daily life of sleeping throughout the afternoon and crap..

And yeah forgot to mention that my prelims is over... not gonna rejoice because I am getting back my results this week. Crap. I don't really care as mentioned before.. most importantly one must learn from his mistakes... the failure is not falling down but to stay there... so when you fall, please get up, stand on your two feet and walk on..

Sometimes it's hard to get up. Really hard. Sometimes you have support and sometimes you don't. It's not a matter of whether you have it or not, most importantly you must fucking stand up.

I can't. I just can't get over it. No one knows how much have I teared inside my heart. No one knows how much it hurts. It hurts so damn badly. Don't try to say you understand because you don't. The reason why I am sitting here not doing anything because I see weak flames of friendship burning... as much as I wanna rekindle it, I can't. I just can't seem to get over it. The feeling sucks. The feeling sucks when you wanna tell the other person and she doesn't give a damn. The feeling sucks when you are the only one facing this shiet. The feeling sucks when no one's able to understand what you have been through. Yeah. Live on with life. That's what I always tell myself.

I always tell myself don't care, don't let all these shiet affect myself, don't care don't care. YEAH FUCK IT. It has been really long since I don't care. I can't get myself not to care and not to think. If only my brain is separated into a million parts when I can choose not to care about some things I shouldn't be.

Why am I telling you all these? You all just don't fucking understand.

"An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind."

Rambled by kaSh at 2:46 am